hime complains!

lotsa stuff happened lately. first, i got accepted into the free programme i wanted to go. but i got into a massive accident 3 days before leaving for KL.

this gave me goosebumps. brr. >.<

i wanted to go study... at least i would able to achieve some thing or rather. even though its just a programme... at least... i get a job via contract!

the injury i got from the accident were mere scratches here and there and big bumps and bruises. compared to the "injury" my bike has taken.... i should be considered dead or broken a limb or two by now.

everyone that saw the condition of my bike says the rider should be injured badly. but they were shocked to see me alive, well and broken limb-free... LOL!

bike shop uncle: wahhh i see ur bike... i think u KO ade lo! then i think, no blood on road... should be break leg break hand! (this is direct translation of hokkien....)

me: yes lo.. my bike damn rosak teruk....

bike shop uncle: YES LA! see the front rim become number 8 liao, see the picture with the car u hit also so chialat( meaning damn teruk_ =_=) i thought u really hurt bad! then now see u ok only! u lucky lo! damn HENG! (means lucky)

me: ya.... i am...

=_= was thinking sometimes i should just "go" there. =_= really negative of me, i know. haha!

i had a nightmare. that i am going to KL by bus and the bus flipped and overturned coz of an exploded tire! T_T i really was scared, coz i see myself all covered in blood and without a hand! T_T

seriously eerie and freaky.

now i am stuck here in boring bm. playing games to pass time and days and weeks and months....

without a proper job nor a goal for my future. i guess i gonna be a boring desperate housewife after all.

*thinking wat to do.*

NOOOOOO!!! i protest this sentance! T_T coz i really wanna be somebody my mother can be proud of......................................................

*still thinking wat to do.*

2mrw, ops 2day! 16th dec... is my mom's 46th birthday. so i gonna take her out for dinner.. hopefully.

with neither money nor money............ (money is damn important for this occasion!). =_= think i gotta ask for help.

so. who's gonna help me?

hime is angry!

i damn fucking hate my bf's brother. fucker likes to complain shyt. and he likes to comment alot on how people should live in so called "his" house.

fuck u man, i never once touched ur fucking food, or eggs, or drinks or anything! cibai u still got the nerve to complain like as though this is ur house when u fully know its ur father's!

the damn asshole asked me to clean up his house coz its so messy. why is it messy? LET ME TELL YOU!

the cd racks are always messy, coz u are the one who watches DVDs and VCDs and not put them in order or nicely! u just chuck it on top of the freakin TV!

the toys are always scattered due to ur KIDS! they are the ones who don't learn to pick up after playin! call urself a good dad? YOU BEAT UR KIDS LIKE AS THOUGH THEY ARE PUNCH BAGS ASSHOLE! i hear them cry ALL THE TIME! and its fuckin annoying that YOU ARE YELLING SHYT TOO! ~d!$&*()@#*curses* i should record the way u whack them and send them to the welfare department. see how u would be punished u damn SICKO!

the WHOLE sofa is OCCUPIED by ur new JEANS in stacks that you wanna sell in pasar pagi or pasar malam!

clean ur house? CLEAN YOUR HOUSE? YOU THINK WAT!

CHAO MAHAI CHAO LANCIAO CHAO CIBAI!

i am ur WIFE ar? FUCKER! i am nOT even RELATED to u! fuck YOU!

complain much? GO SUCK UR OWN COCK!

damn you asshole freako. i hate you.

Hime admits!

i am recently addicted to twitter. and also cabal online.

=_= yep i knw wat u gonna say. GAME FREAK! or as ryan higa said.. tweet whore =_+

its not my fault!~!!!! its tat lil box of 140 words tat gets to me! i just need to share some nonsense with the world!! LOL << this is giving myself stupid excuses.

i kinda update like a siao lang on frequent rants.. and duno how i got twitter linked to my facebook status. so there i am.. twittering like mad at twitter.com, and the status update in my facebook bings up like crazy! haha. i didn't realised until i opened my facebook and clicked on my profile.

and there i was, looking at a row of tweets. hahaha! some friends even commented! it was cool.
so i think i'd just leave it like tat. hehe.

happy that my lao gong is safe beside me, and i only have a few days to KL.... sad sad!

hime's randomness!

my mind is completely blank. i want so many things that i was forced to block it off my mind before i cry in desperation to my mother.

i feel so.... troubled all the time. my sister depends on me so much but i just can't be there even if i wanted to.

i feel so lost sometimes i am going crazy.
i just wonder why am i feeling so lousy when everything seems find and nice actually?!

wat the hell. i am doing something i told myself that i shouldn't do.

kinda hooked to twitter. LOL!

hime is!!

JEALOUS!!!!!!!!

T_T

i cant take good photos. even if i do, i would look like a malay, indon, bangla, siamese, vietnamese... whatever.... i will never look pretty.

ugh. why why why why why!

i kinda like taking pictures of myself but i never dared to post it without thinking twice! coz i might not look like myself and i might not look like what i wanted it to look like!!! T_T

i am damn jealous of my sister. she takes good photos with half the effort. she doesn't even need to photoshop anything. she doesn't need the editing. T_T

*cries* i really wanna be at least a bit photogenic. damn those accumulated fats!

i think i am going to be thinner once i stay in kl. coz the lack of penang food there.... haha!
half-heartedly willing to go kl actually. but this is for my future. i wanna gain something in life. so this is the journey i have to take.

i am typing this super fast coz i am suppose to be somewhere now. and i came all the way home to bathe and smoke (must cut down) and tweet and blog. *laughs*

wish... i could look good. for once.

Hime GONE

MAD!

not as in psycho mad but mad... MAD!!!!!! ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!! geddit....

i really dun like some peeps that just just JUST RUINS MY DAY!

i understand i gotta be responsible and all but i do keep promises.

i said i'll pay... MEANING I WILL PAY!!!!!!!!!!!

please, for the love of God, and yourself, be patient and come meet me when i said i am free.

WHEN I AM NOT FREE, WHY ARE U CALLING ME!

ass. i really wanna enjoy the movie with my beloved lao gong.

butttt nO! my phone keeps ringing and ringing and ringing!

i really wanted to throw the phone at the couple that keep on kicking on my chair. assholes and bitches.

i already asked nicely to stop kicking the chair... but noooo........! he still does it! wonder why!

damn. stomach cramps. and stomach ache.

*dashes to the loo*

ok i am back. the thing is, i really really feel upset.ugh. maybe the period is making me go haywire. i really want to apologize to some people.

sorry james and ronald. our friendship wil be different from now on.

never will i seek for ur help ever again.

you know...

the more i see this anime called "lucky star" yea, type tat in the youtube search tab! the more i am into this anime!~~~

ITS SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love the blue haired shorty called Izumi, she's sooo into gaming and anime. haha!

totally random post.

looking forward for my ang pao(s)......... i m gonna be 21 soon. =_=

sigh..

I wonder how my sis is getting along. haven't talked to her in days. like 2 days to be exact.

hmm..., oh well.

guess she just needs time to understand. =/

haihzzzz................... Z_Z

i am soooo disappointed with myself.

i am angry at my sister's bf. HE are one life-ruiner. the relationship between me and my sister would not be the same ever again.

i would rather that she haven't met this so called "love of her life". =/ she is definately walking on the same thorned road that i suffered through.

and dare say that guy controls her but protect her at the same time!

let me "show" u how he "protects" her.

no guys is ever allowed to be by her side.
no guy friends are allowed to go in the house if he is not around to witness the guy stepping in the house.
basically no going anywhere (outings and makans) with any of her guy friends.
totally cut off from the social connections of our various guy friends that we knew for years.
this current bf actually "murdered" this huge bear that is a present from her ex bf.
no way he would allow her to join in any of our usual pasar malam activities, needless to say, she will be counted absent in any of our planned outings.

you call this PROTECTING?

then the dictionary explanation is going down the drain.

gosh....

I wanna write something super interesting. but i am treating this blog like my personal twitter that no one sees =_=

hahahaha.

i actually have a super massive bad temper. sometimes i am afraid of myself. because of my temper i actually broke 2 phones. and both of em isn't mine....

hohohohohohoho...

i recently have this seriously uncontrollable temper. i blow up super easily. i couldn't control what happens after i am at my peek.

i pratically destroyed my room the other day. lol. yup i am damn ganas.

i can't understand why i am a girl. arent i suppose to be a boy?

why everyone asks me why i look like a girl but attitude is totally guy-ish?

guy trapped in a girl's body??? o_O

even my mom doesn't know what to do. huhuhu. i sadden her alot.

but oh well, whats done is done................................ hopefully..lao gong can "tame" me.