yesterday... u are gone...

...from my life..
the nine and a half months taking care of you... feeding you... bathing you... cleaning your poo...

to me, now its like a dream....

somehow your death is a nightmare... i never cried so hard in my life, not even when i was dumped by my ex or got into an accident or when my friend killed herself.

I watched you struggle for air.. breathing for life.. I watched u twitch when i tried to give you CPR...

i watched you trying to get up... or trying to move ur limbs...

my tears, flowing like an endless stream... starts calling out ur name..

i really wanted u to live. i was gonna promise to buy u toys and stuff..

why is ur life so short?

i am so sorry for u to have a useless owner like me...

i really hope u will forgive me for not taking care of u properly...

but its time for u to go to heaven... and enjoy ur life there...
no one can replace u... no animal can replace ur exsistance in my heart.

i really loved u... like u are my baby, although u may not understand humans...
although u think we are monsters... but i really cared for you... like i gave birth to u..

my tears cant seem to stop...even when i am typing this...

i love u...rabbithorn.... R.I.P